January 16, 2011

When I first started writing here I wanted to let other people know they were not alone in feeling the way we do about the whole trans world.  I feel anger and frustration at our use and abuse at the hands of GLBT Inc, the vicious attempts to destroy us by the sexologists, and our outright mockery from the transgender portion of the gay and lesbian world.  I know that many if not all transsexual-born people feel the same way, yet there is absolute silence outside a few voices in the wilderness.  No one should have to put up with any of this, and it was only allowed because of the concerted efforts of these groups to separate us from the mainstream and tarnish our reputation.

To look into the trans world is to look into the world of psychopathy.  It is a vicious pit characterized by the psychopath’s view of life, that of the food chain.  To them if you don’t prey on others, you will be preyed upon.  This is why the hierarchy concept is so resilient there.  In this bizarre world, everything is a game and nothing matters but winning.  Whatever winning means.

Over the last year I’ve been involved with efforts to form a new identity outside of that paradigm.  Or so I thought.  I didn’t want new transitioners to fall prey to these monsters.  It worries me greatly that young, vulnerable people will become food for these snakes.  If you don’t know who and what psychopaths/sociopaths are, you are an easy victim.  Everyone should educate themselves on these predators that walk among us.

Once you understand what goes on with them everything becomes clear.  The shaming, the abuse, the total lack of regard for the consequences of their actions.  The trans world as it exists now is simple a reflection of “the game” that psychopaths play.

Born without empathy, they are incapable of feeling what most humans do.  Empathy itself is what makes us human.  It is the seat of compassion and morality, and is the source of our love for one another.  Empathy created our civilization.  Without this, we are nothing more than brute monsters that can do little but destroy.

It is no accident that empathy comes under attack as foolish these days.  Psychopaths think our emotions make us weak and vulnerable to their predations.  There are psychopaths among us in places of power, playing their games and pitting us against one another for their amusement.  Our popular culture and governments reflect much of the psychopaths’ credo.

Most people think these conscienceless creatures are all serial killers, but nothing could be further from the truth.  Most of them look and sound like anyone else until the mask slips.  People look at vile governments, poverty, war, man’s inhumanity to man, and think “We are a horrible species”.  They feel guilt and shame and hatred of their fellow humans.  And without reason.

The vast majority of the evil in this world is perpetrated by people born without empathy.  I believe this is a fading group in evolutionary terms.  Once empathy appeared in our population, the percentage of these predators started dropping.  It is no accident that we have ascended from barbarism to a global civilization.  Empathy changes us from solitary predators to social animals.  The cooperation that civilization requires could only come from love and understanding.

Don’t be fooled by the talk of the dog eat dog world and looking out for number one, and don’t buy into the idea that people are horrible.  That is the trickery of the psychopaths who currently shape much of our lives, working its way through us.  They want us to hate each other as much as they do.  Their words are just vile poison, reflective of their hatred.  Much of our government and business world reflects the psychopaths’ toxic magick; it does not come as a natural result of humanity itself.

Wars, famine, hatred… If you’ve ever asked yourself how these things happen again and again in bewilderment, the answer is clear.  We live in pathocracies, where our best intents are turned against us and we are set to endless fighting.  Then we blame ourselves while the psychopaths laugh.  People think that somehow being high up in government is some excuse for this gamesmanship, that being at the top of the human world changes people in some way.  But in truth, would any of us make the decisions those people do, leading to the slaughter of tens of millions of people?  People don’t turn evil, they are born that way.

You can read how they view us in  The Psychopath’s Bible.  The more functional psychopaths, and ultimately the most dangerous, hide their difference and use their lack of morals to inflict untold harm to the rest of us.  This is not inadvertent either; they feel anger at their deprivation, and feel we have something they don’t which is theirs by right.  That is the fuel that drives their games, the absolute emptiness from having no emotions other than anger when they don’t win and get what they want.  And the most vicious of them, like the author of the book just mentioned, tell themselves that their role is to utterly destroy humanity so that something “more interesting” can evolve.

Because this shift from psychopath to empath is an evolution of humanity, its all about shifting populations.  As the number of empaths, (now) normal people, rises the number of psychopaths falls.  They have dwindled to 1-4% of the population, though the number fluctuates on a regular rhythm.  This becomes important when you look at the transsexual issue.

I believe the human population creates transsexual people to reduce the number of psychopaths, in the process of our evolution to a higher state as a species.  We don’t need psychopaths or sociopaths anymore, they have done their work culling the species.  The destiny of the transsexual population is to help end the psychopath reign once and for all.

Psychopaths are often very alluring to normal people.  Whether its sex or power, people are drawn to them like moths to a flame.  For their part psychopaths are drawn to particular sorts of prey.  They can spot people who have been wounded emotionally, abused, or are otherwise ripe for predation.  This is why you will find so many low-functioning psychopaths in the trans world.  They are drawn to transsexual people like a moth to a flame.

This sounds bad on its face.  Evil monsters drawn to vulnerable people.  But if you look at it another way, it serves a purpose.

The campaign of hate and slander against us is meant to isolate us as prey from the rest of society.  Keeping us alone and vulnerable in a web of deceit is the favored method of these creatures.  But as society evolves, so does its treatment of us.

As we all become more empathic as a people, our natural inclination to love and cherish one another will eclipse the world the psychopaths have built.  As that happens, more and more transsexual people survive and thrive.  We are no longer the broken down victims that we are made out to be.

Due to the way we spend time outside the normal world before we are healed, we gain insight into what being an outsider means.  This is akin to what the psychopath feels their whole life.  Once we are healed, we take that experience with us into our new life.

Psychopaths have an uncanny ability to read people.  They live in a different world and use that to their advantage.  They know how to push your buttons and get an almost robot like response.  Using this, our programmed social nature, they play people against one another hoping to cause as much destruction as they can.  This is such a powerful motivator that they can use it to turn family members against one another, shape an organization to their will to benefit themselves, or even rise to the presidency of a country so they can play even bigger destructive games.  That’s what they live for.

Transsexual people by nature are powerful empaths, more so than most humans.  We feel and see things that no other people do.  A fully actualized transsexual-born person is almost preternaturally gifted with understanding others.  We have the power to uplift and give hope to those around us, to forge bonds and bring people together.

Where the psychopath hurts, we help.  Where they bring pain, we bring joy.  Where they destroy, we build.  The two groups are polar opposites and natural enemies:  We sense this instinctively.  That is why they are drawn to us; not just because we are good victims before we blossom, but because their evil world will cease to exist if we are allowed to flourish.

And woe betide the scheming psychopath who targets the fully actualized transsexual.  There are no buttons to push.  There are no games to play.  The web of lies and deceit is torn asunder without a thought.  Any number of those foul psychopathic beasts could dash themselves against such a transcendent figure and send themselves over the edge, destroying themselves as they have tried to destroy so many others in their lives.

A society that embraces difference, that nurtures everyone regardless of difference, is a society that will prosper and grow.  It is also a society where transsexual-born people will be treated with dignity and respect, and their numbers will flourish.  This is very bad for those who want to use difference to destroy us.

The trans world is now thankfully bereft of all but a few transsexual people.  Lacking any other prey, the predators who live there now feast on each other, exposing the ugly reality of what they really are.

It is almost impossible to convince other people they have been duped by a psychopath, so effective is the emotional button pushing, and our disgust with ourselves at having been tricked so easily.  The only way to expose these predators and their webs of deceit is to encourage them to be themselves.  They also have buttons that can be pushed, and if you know what you are doing you can cause them to frenzy and expose their true visage.  And that is precisely what has been done.

I came into writing this blog with great hope.  I hoped that we could come together and move beyond that horrible trans world which was built by trans-predators.  As time went on I realized that wasn’t possible, not all at once.  Some things had to happen to clear the way.  There are so many schemes, and plots, and backstabbings going on that any attempt by transsexual people to come together in unity was bound to fail.  So the only thing to do was to make it all plain so they would be deprived of new victims.  This was a process that was going to happen anyway, but now it will take months rather than years.  At this point, the way is clearing for a new transsexual paradigm.

With this success, I feel my small role is done in the trans business.  I wish I could have been a part of the the wonderful things that will come later for us, but that’s past the time I had allotted to me to be a voice here.  I am happy that others will be able to move forward and play their own parts in our redemption and eventual triumph.

To those who have followed and supported me, I thank you.  This chapter is closing, and the next will open.


Humanity is good; never lose faith in that.

As a transsexual person, you have a beautiful heart and a powerful mind; never let anyone tell you differently.

Our destiny is wonderful, and the future is full of bright promise.

I have no more to say.


The Choice

January 11, 2011

The failed character assassination of Ashley Love by Autumn Sandeen is a watershed moment in the trans-world.  Never has it been more clear that the people who contend for positions within Gay Inc, our transgender ward bosses, have our worst interests at heart.  The transgender and transsexual agendas are not compatible, and the notion that what is good for TG is also good for TS is coming into sharp focus for what it really is.  A boldfaced lie.

There was a long string of victories for transsexual people which began back in the 50’s and 60’s before there was ever a gay movement, and long before the creation of “transgender” as a political movement in the 1990’s.  We owe our ability to transition and live happy lives to those people who went to government officials with the backing of their doctors, not to any latter-day shenanigans of the patently non-transsexual transgender movement.

The rise of TG dogma put an end to progress for transsexual people, and their brief moment of fame and fortune has come at great cost to those they co-opt.  At this point with a dead ENDA and the GLBT descending into civil war, it is clear that the transgender activists have not only tried to negate any gains made for transsexuals, but also contributed quite a lot toward the demise of a once vibrant cause.

There can be no doubt at this point that what is good for the transgender activists, by their own admission, is bad for transsexual people who simply want to cure their ailment and move on in life.  And yet at the same time the reverse is not true:  What is good for transsexuals will also benefit those who call themselves transgender.  After all, it was the existence of our birth defect and the medical world’s tentative support that gave them everything that they have.

In essence, it is we who gave to them and now they spit in our faces and declare themselves lord and master while trying to take everything from us.

Enough is enough.  It will not hurt the transgender one bit to let us have our rights, and yet they rail against them night and day.  They tell us we don’t exist except as a flavor of transgender.  We are not men and women, merely pretenders.  And then the leaders of the vile movement that transgender has become add insult to injury- they claim to speak for us and any of us who speak for ourselves are labeled hateful and bigoted, shifting the blame from their shoulders onto the targets of their aggression, in true propagandist fashion worthy of any fascist.

If we attain our rights, it can only benefit everyone.  Holding us hostage to their agenda is not a legitimate position.  Anyone who supports this tactic is not only an enemy of transsexual people everywhere, they are an enemy of freedom and civil rights themselves.

It is time to choose.  I support Ashley Love one hundred percent, she has every right to speak the truth to our assailants.  But she cannot serve two causes.  The cause of transsexual people could have been a doorway for others, but the way the transgender played things out has made them a destructive enemy rather than an ally.  That was their choice.

The choice for Ashley and those who will follow in her footsteps is whether they will stand up for transsexual rights, or if they will continue to try to represent everyone else.  You can’t do both, and it’s a shame it has come to this.  But the fight has been created by the transgender, and the only choice left to us is whether we surrender to their wants, or we pursue our own needs regardless of what the interlopers try to do to us.

What is it going to be?

A New Paradigm

January 2, 2011

The state of transsexualism, 2011

The start of a new year is an auspicious time for turning over a new leaf.  The last 2 years have seen a great shift in the area formerly known as trans.  Identity politics is on the decline and with it the force that held the fragile trans model together politically.  No longer is it necessary to toe the line of transtalk when discussing this issue, though it can still require fortitude to overcome the conditioned aversion that has been laid over us all.  The idea that being TS is “hate” is still prevalent, and this must change.  This will happen because the bullies have given back the ground they took and are still in retreat.

My hope for the near future is that men and women in transition may speak their mind completely free from the control scheme and bullying that fettered the area before.  This is possible because internally within the trans world, there are clear lines being redrawn even now between crossdressers, people who transition due to sexual orientation, and people born with the transsexual birth defect.  They are doing it themselves, out of what they believe to be political necessity.  It is too little, too late.

This is in no small part due to the dogged determination of a dedicated few who persisted in the face of the absolute onslaught sent their way during the last several years.  And along with  that, some of the more outrageous behavior of the trans-people had the leading figures shaking their heads and reconsidering the wisdom of trying to represent the interests of lifestyle artists and intersex in the same breath.  This is a paradigm shift in the trans world.

It is time for the transsexual area to evolve.  In the past we had been clasped into chains by people who want to establish hierarchy and raise themselves up at the expense of everyone else.  As TG increasingly took ownership of the word transsexual, they brought with them this notion that there are degrees of transsexualism and that some transsexuals are better than others.  The flurry of so-called narratives became diagnostic of what “type” of TS you were.  This must change.

There are no legitimate hierarchies here.  You either are or you aren’t.  You do, or you don’t.  That’s all there is to it.  All the different narratives are simply expressions of the things we experience as we go through life- they are not indicative of being TS in and of themselves.  This is a result of the psychiatric ownership of this issue to this date, where we are judged based on who we have sex with and what our mothers may or may not have done properly in our upbringing.  Completely left out of the equation was the primary problem that led to all the others; the eventual absolute alienation from your own body that every TS person arrives at.  Everything flows from that, and if you don’t put the cart before the horse as the sexologists and TG do, every TS “narrative” will make perfect sense in light of circumstance.  This would make it easy to account for such things as societal attitudes growing up, family background, feelings about sexual stereotypes, or any of the other things that currently confuse many when trying to understand this condition.

If there is a measure of degree at all here, it is the speed with which one arrives at this point of no return, not the nature of what is reached.  I suppose some of the anger that arises, a lot probably, is the equivalence drawn between people who are obviously enjoying their “journey” and TS people who have known nothing but misery before transition.

To be transsexual is to grow up watching your body become twisted into a form so grotesque you can’t bear your image in the mirror.  You are so deformed that other people can’t even see who you really are, and you lose the ability to interact socially as a result.  To be transsexual is to walk the earth as a ghost, seeing everything but touching nothing.

Some people reflect on these kinds of things and think “I don’t hate my body so much.  You know, like hate it, hate it…”, and think there is something amiss somewhere.  This is often a matter of time, perspective, and personality.  It’s difficult to quantify something like the loathing of ones sexual characteristics.  It is such an odd state of being with no comparison for people to make judgments that it can be very confusing to “diagnose” oneself.  How can you know what the difference between being comfortable with your body and not, if you have nothing to compare it to?  Indifference can either be a perception of congruence with your body… or it could be what we tell ourselves when we don’t actually “like” it, one of the coping mechanisms TS people use to get through life before transition.  This is what led to the confusion with TG in the first place.  Also, there are many other defense mechanisms in place that cloud memories and confuse issues after the fact.  Many people face more than just the TS problem in their lives and the longer you go without fixing it, the more mixed up the world will seem as everything conflates.

There are other cosmetic differences to consider as well.  If you manage to figure out on a conscious level the nature of the problem you face (more common now than in the past), your perception of the issue will be very different than someone who reached the final point of collapse and burns in agony at their very existence.  I believe this is the main source of the confusion for psych practitioners about so-called “primary” and “secondary” transsexuals.  They have constructed a spectrum solution to the problem that doesn’t see the actual spectrum they try to describe.  They put all transsexual experience at one end into a single point and dismiss anything that does not conform, even while they construct what they believe to be a sliding scale of “gender behavior”.

If there were degrees to transsexualism, they still would not correspond to degrees of stereotyped sex-role behavior as they believe.  As a result of this “expert help”, people who are TS go through life increasingly miserable thinking that because they do not fit the crazy stories that psychs tell they must not be TS.  And people who have no business taking hormones and getting surgery are called “transsexual” by iatrogenic artifact.  This must change, and is changing even now.

It is time for a blanket amnesty for all of us.  We must stop using the words of our enemies to describe each other.  No more accusing people of being autogynephiles, or judging each other by the difficulties or blessings we have been born into.  No more acceptance of bigotry toward sexual orientation.  We must stop playing into the hands of people who divide and conquer, and stop trying to qualify each others birth defects based on the false criteria of the past.  We must dismiss “narrative” from our lexicon, and dismiss sexology from our lives entirely.

We need a diversity of voices coming together as one.  Straight and gay, poor and rich.  People from all walks of life with the same message:  We are men and women, without qualification.

Men and women.  Always and forever.


In a recent December letter, Anne Lawrence bemoans the DSM-5 Gender “Incongruence” sub-committee’s recommendations.  As some have noted, the new proposed standards include an exit clause for anyone who feels they are transitioned enough, which bothers Lawrence probably because it doesn’t allow her to continue to be “transsexual” since she is supposed to be treated.  And it’s just not stigmatizing enough- it frees people too quickly.

But what’s more important, and less remarked, is that they propose doing away with describing different types of TS.  This is an amazing development, and very encouraging.  The two type nonsense is dead, the unitary phenomenon view is on the rise.

Despite the population of the “GID” committee with people who are completely hostile to the notion of biological TS, there are enough other people out there who know better and are willing to speak out.  This may suggest a consideration that the increasing biological evidence presents an insurmountable problem for talk therapists.  It is only strange that it took this long for such a recognition given that the basis of TS treatment was that it was not amenable to any kind of cure; talk, electroshock, drugs, imprisonment, or otherwise.  The worm is indeed turning.

In the United States our situation is very different than in countries where they have government run health care.  In those countries, medical authority is wielded with all the force of the government, and if patients want treatment for something considered new or unproved they often face the uphill battle of trying to prosecute a case against an intractable bureaucracy.  And even if successful, what is given can easily be taken away.  You must petition the government for special rights and privileges in many of these places, and you end up with things like that UK Gender Act of 2004, which creates a special status rather than simply switching you from one column to the other.  While imperfect, it’s at least a path to change that allows unchallenged marriages for some.

Here in the States, it’s a wide open field.  We don’t need to go begging the psych establishment hat in hand for the ability to transition.  The legal structure that allows this has already been in place for decades and we have made small gains despite the TG interference.  These gains are trumpeted as wins for the TG paradigm, but that is simple rebranding and propaganda.  A couple states have liberalized legal sex change requirements, but you must still find a doctor to certify that you have completed clinical treatment. This will be more difficult to get with the coming changes, something that is not good for anyone.  In fact, a few states have actually become more restrictive in granting these changes, but this isn’t something that affects post ops very much.  It’s more of a pain, but you can usually gather the material with a little more effort.  This, in fact, is what the TG have accomplished, shooting us all in the foot.  And nothing more.

The good news is that anyone who wants to can transition and have almost universal access to change the few things you need to address with the government- and without the psychs.  In 47 of 50 states, you can change your birth certificate.  In all 50 states you can change your driver’s license.  And upon presentation of a surgery letter to the Social Security administration, you can change your “federal sex” for almost all purposes, without a birth certificate.  Taxation, marriage, other things of that sort.  Some states completely observe our marriages and even in those where it is dodgy at best, such as Texas, there are opportunities for positive outcomes.  Things are still very, very good for us.  But they can be better.

We are very close to being able to cement our rights in terms of legal sex designation.  The only thing that should concern men and women of TS background is whether or not our paperwork carries the same weight as everyone else’s.  That’s all we need.  This solves our marriage issue without reference to same-sex marriage  and completely extricates us from the gay world.  This, along with the new escape clause from the psychs that is probably forthcoming removes the institutional stigma that has dogged us all these years.  It rescues us from the realm of the TG and the process of repairing the public perception of this birth defect will begin in earnest.

The best part about this is that it is all for the individual to choose, we are all free to do whatever we wish.  We define ourselves by our actions:  Those who are TS will cure and move on.  Those who aren’t will remain where they are by choice, and have no one to blame but themselves.  There is no judgment but what we deem of ourselves.  And also no one to blame for living in the ghetto.

It also has the merit of not feeding into a creation of a forced 3rd sex category, as all the TG efforts have to date.  Their agenda has been completely detrimental to our rights and needs.  Their gains would have been our losses.  It is sad that was the path that was chosen, and it will be a blessing to be separated from people whose goal is to radically alter society.  Whether or not you agree with that goal, it should be for the individual to choose.  It is not right to conscript a minority of people, who have a birth defect, as a battering ram at society’s gate to enforce your views and social agenda on the vast majority of he public.  And it was an effort doomed to failure in any case.

It is sad that those who would be transgender chose to attack and destroy us rather than recognize our differences and embrace acceptance of one another.  It does not make me happy to see so many people drowning in misery, regardless of the animosity that has characterized this area and the wars that have been waged against us in the media by these people.  It is with nothing but relief that I recount this sea change, this closing of the transgender chapter.  It is a great weight lifted from our shoulders.

Along with the new leaf we are turning over regarding authenticity, we must also establish a new paradigm for presenting the transsexual syndrome in the years to come.  Freed from the fetters of gender theory, a herculean task remains; construct our own.  While the legal victories in the years to come will no doubt provide the individual with everything they need to complete transition, the establishment of a truthful paradigm for transsexualism will prevent problems from arising in the future.  The concept is already deeply rooted in the public mind; it requires only the water and sunlight it has been starved of all these years in order to blossom.

This is my challenge to all of you who would write the future.