If you aren’t transsexual, don’t transition

November 2, 2010

SA ET has a great post at her blog Enough Nonsense.  It’s really about time that someone pointed out that the world does not, and will not, change to accommodate the wishes of those of us who transition- lots of people seem to think that saying you have a medical diagnosis of being a transsexual means that people must treat you a certain way.  And when it doesn’t they think something is wrong with the world.  That’s one of the key problems with the transgender approach.

Half transition is not a cure for a “partial gender identity”.  That is patent nonsense.  Transition is for transsexuals and there are no half measures involved.  You either do it and accept the consequences or you leave it be.  People who think they can live between genders are fooling themselves and wrecking their lives.  And those who push this gender identity garbage have done major damage through their advocacy for a false construct both to themselves and their families, as well as to the overall state of transsexual medical treatment and public acceptance.

As a friend says, if your life isn’t better after transition than before, then what are you doing it for?  To live “authentically”, comes the refrain.  But that doesn’t really mean anything does it?  A life can be measured with objective criteria of happiness and fulfillment, and the transgender lifestyle fails at these tasks not because society simply doesn’t understand them (as it is with gays and lesbians to an extent), but because the transgender lifestyle itself creates misery.  It is not a legitimate way to live.  And you know why?  It’s axiomatic, and it’s what I just said.  TG produces a misery index every time it is injected into someone’s life and it causes demonstrable harm.  It misdirects a person’s time and energy away from handling their issues with false hope and false promises of a better life.

And once you tell everyone you are TG with the obligatory coming out routine that is prescribed for all trans* people, you can’t take it back.  It’s forever.  Unless of course you disappear and resurface.  But your ties with your family and other loved ones can never be untainted.  Trans carries a high price, a price that is denied by those who try to sell that snake oil.  If you try to transition and are not a transsexual you will quickly find that life becomes all but unlivable over time.  Visit any TG “community” and look around.  A bastion of hope and change it is not.

Do I say these things to harm people?  No, exactly the opposite.  I have seen first hand what trans does to people’s lives and it never turns out well.  By being straightforward, and even angry, I hope to impart an urgency and a truth to the dialog that doesn’t exist now.  The world is not a place where we can all just join hands and play let’s pretend and have everything magically appear the way we want it.  But neither is it the cold, cruel world the TG imagine must await them outside the ghetto walls.  You just have to be honest with yourself, and take that first step towards your future.

For some being truthful with yourself is the hardest thing you can do, as another friend just pointed out to me. (Hey Lisa! :))  But that’s where your life begins.

If you aren’t transsexual, don’t transition.  Sooner or later you will regret it.




The Argument of the Beard

October 26, 2010

“How many hairs does a man have to grow before he has a beard? Since there is no specific number at which an unsightly clump of hairs becomes a beard, the argument is that no useful distinction can be made between a clean-shaven man and Santa Claus.”

One of the most cherished fictions of the transgender mythos is that of the spectrum which joins all humans together on a glorious rainbow based on how often you crossdress.  The occasional trip into the wife’s closet on one end, the completely deranged mutilated post op on the other.  There are two major problems with this view.

The first has to do with “The Continuum Fallacy”, also know as “The Argument of the Beard”. Basically this is what happens when the mental construct of a scale which joins different things for convenience is taken to an extreme, and you end up looking at both ends as essentially the same.  Let’s see what that bastion of knowledge, Wikipedia, has to say on the topic.

The fallacy appears to demonstrate that two states or conditions cannot be considered distinct (or do not exist at all) because between them there exists a continuum of states.

Narrowly speaking, the sorites paradox refers to situations where there are many discrete states (classically between 1 and 1,000,000 grains of sand, hence 1,000,000 possible states), while the continuum fallacy refers to situations where there is (or appears to be) a continuum of states, such as temperature – is a room hot or cold? Whether any continua exist in the physical world is the classic question of atomism, and while Newtonian physics models the world as continuous, in modern quantum physics, notions of continuous length break down at the Planck length, and thus what appear to be continua may, at base, simply be very many discrete states.

Fred can never be called bald. Fred isn’t bald now, however if he loses one hair, that won’t make him go from not bald to bald either. If he loses one more hair after that, then this one loss, also does not make him go from not bald to bald. Therefore, no matter how much hair he loses, he can never be called bald.

You can see how patently false the gender continuum is on its face.  Even accepting that there is some as-yet-undefined ethereal string binding all “gender variant” behavior together, there is no credible way to conclude that every point on the “gender continuum” is essentially the same.  The TG politicians gloss over this fact in their attempts to sell us on the idea that we are the same in a de facto fashion, due to prejudice.

Further, there is nothing except the casual observer’s opinion to suggest there is any real connection between the born transsexual and the crossdresser.  Absent other evidence, it’s easy to see why people might think this at first.  But evidence is now coming in and will continue to do so.  On every level, the TG paradigm is false.

The really disturbing part of gender politics is how the wants of the retired and well to do crossdressers have taken precedence over the needs of those who are born with the transsexual birth defect.  TG has been a movement largely driven by the 50-60 somethings who have retired from long successful careers as men.  After retirement these older individuals had the free time to pursue their crossdressing hobby as much as they wanted.  And like any addiction it quickly got out of control to the point where they convinced themselves they had special rights relating to their crossdressing.

In contrast, the life of the transsexual is one of quiet desperation and abject want until they complete treatment.  Only then can the (post) transsexual person truly begin to live.  It is extremely unlikely that a person who has untreated transsexualism will go very far before hitting the wall.  Only the strongest individuals, and those with a bit of luck on their side, will make it into the beginning of a real career in this increasingly two-tiered society of ours.  And that is done usually to enable transition; once the ability to transition is obtained, things rush forward to completion.  This certainly casts doubt on the rash of sudden “transsexuals” who discovered that they needed to transition (without surgery) after a 30 or 40 year marriage, producing many offspring and grandchildren in the bargain.

At issue, as always, is the definition of the term “transsexual”.  The TG/trans camp says that anyone can be transsexual just by saying so.  There are even support groups for “non transitioning transsexuals”.  People are using this term to hide from their own issues and damaging the status of transsexuals in the process.  This is a birth condition, not a security blanket for people to comfort themselves with.

Any time someone attempts to assert the truth about the transsexual birth defect, crowds of angry naysayers spring up to rip the blanket back from the big meanie.  Transsexuals are supposed to put up with their abuse and misuse of the treatment protocols designed for the few of us who were born with this problem.  In short, because this is largely a fight between transsexual women and crossdressing men, we are supposed to allow men their fantasies because facing their issues will be too painful for the poor dears.  And therefore we must put up with any amount of misogyny from them because we have stepped out of our place and forgotten that they outrank us somehow.  I saw a shameful example of this recently when Catkisser was recently attacked by a misogynist in a comment on another blog.  It’s par for the course though, and she’s used to it.  It happens time and again, and never is there a price to pay when trannies attack us using the most hateful language they can dream up.

And that’s always the way, too.  You try to keep the argument on topic, and invariably one of the trannies (or a horde of them when they can organize themselves) tries to make it nasty and personal.  They can’t win an argument because the truth is not on their side, so they pound the table and paint scarlet letters on witches.  To them, all of this is a joke and they have no real stake in the outcome.  It’s a game to them and they think its all quite entertaining to attack women like me.

This is not a game.  This is deadly serious.  People like me don’t have some closet to run back into if things go wrong the way trannies do.  This is my life, and the lives of the 50-100 thousand other post ops here in the US.  It even affects people in other countries around the world.  So when you attack the truth of our birth condition and laugh about the little personal wars you conduct, you expose yourselves for the misogynistic asses that you are.  You seriously want TG rights?  Go stuff yourself.  Crossdressers get the same rights as anyone else, what the hell could they possibly want?

You are going to get zero sympathy from people that you use and abuse.  And I’m not doing you any favors by humoring your delusions that you are transsexual.  That’s one big reason the APA is revising the standards right now in this area; I’m sure the fear of coming lawsuits from “transsexual” regretters that they have enabled looms large.  They had also better be aware that when more science is available they may find themselves in court with transsexuals fed up with the APA joining us to the fetishists.


October 19, 2010

The psych industry’s involvement in the transsexual issue has been one of opportunistic infection.  Taking advantage of all the gender mumbo jumbo, some fringe sexologists have decided to completely erase true transsexualism from the equation.  They’ve done this by taking the two groups who comprise the “transgender” and calling them “transsexuals”.  These “transsexuals” are then allowed access to medical treatment as long as they cooperate with the sexologist agenda.

The transgender for their part have made the best of this situation and went along with the mantra that true transsexuals don’t exist.  Yet when their own designated groups were characterized in a way they thought exposed the truth, they quickly turned and lashed out at the sexologist clique.  The result of that ongoing clash can be read elsewhere.

The point of all this is that the two groups that these particular sexologists are studying really do exist.  But they are not transsexual.  It is a either a colossal bit of ignorance on their part that they have undertaken to erase the biological condition from the psych annals, or a purposeful misrepresentation much like the one the trans* have engaged in.  The DSM V rewrite notwithstanding, it is hard to believe that the people responsible for the mischaracterization of the transsexual syndrome have changed their beliefs, especially since their careers depend on it.

A brief explanation of AGP and HSTS.

AGP:  a crossdresser who has been given access to the transsexual treatment regimen by their mental health professional, up to and including surgery.

HSTS: A gay boy or young man who has been given access to the transsexual treatment regimen by their mental health professional, up to and including surgery.

It’s really that simple.  Both groups do exist thanks to identity politics (I “identify” as…), and the complicity of psych professionals who encourage the behavior.  These are not transsexual individuals by any standard other than latter day revisionism.

What do you suppose would happen if the psychs in question admitted to cooperating with either a patient’s mental illness, or a patient’s agenda to undertake what is simply a lifestyle choice using medical protocols?  It would be a disaster for the APA.  They simply can’t do it, hence the muddle-mouthed DSM revision currently underway.  They have to find some way to put a stop to their endorsement of crossdressers and gay guys getting sex change hormones and such, and at the same time some of the more level-headed people involved have told them they can’t shut it down for true transsexuals, judging by the tenetive wording we saw with the interim report.  AGP and HSTS only exist as disordered individuals because they have been allowed to do so by a debased psychiatric system.  The system created these disorders, and these people wouldn’t have altered their bodies without that consent and encouragement from flawed DSM guidelines (not to mention the supportive “community” who told them they were a kind of transsexual).  Think about the difficult position this puts the APA in!

This is also why it is useless to define the transsexual birth condition by surgical status alone.  By and large, most people who get surgery and carry on with their lives uninvolved with gay politics are not heard from again.  This is a fairly good indication of who the transsexuals are.  Yet there are a number of post-operative transvestites and gay men (mostly the former) who make an inordinate amount of noise and who attempt to define the condition in their own terms.

The takeaway from all this is that HSTS and AGP are patently NOT transsexual.  HSTS is not a “more real” transsexual, it simply means gay man.  And you can’t graduate up the tranny scale from crossdresser to transsexual, that is a myth.  Using these terms to describe yourself says a lot about you; our affinities for various sub cultures reveal where we really belong.  If you “identify as” a crossdresser with sex-fueled surgical interests, that is what you are- a crossdresser.  If you identify as a “homosexual” transsexual who is attracted to people of the same reproductive  sex, that is who you are; a homosexual (man).  Don’t confuse these lifestyle choices with the transsexual birth condition.  It’s your life to ruin.

The answer to your question. (Why can’t people see me as a 3rd “Gender”?)

October 14, 2010

One of the constant gripes heard from the TG/trans* crowd is that their special trans* concerns are never part of the GLBT agenda.  They complain that “cis, white, gay men” are  always the spokespeople for their movement.  This is often followed by the question, “Why?”.

The answer is that gay men and lesbian women see you as gays and lesbians who simply having a problem accepting yourselves.  That is how the rest of the world sees you too.  It is only in your own little group of trans*people that anyone believes that you are something other than male or female.  When one of the few gays or lesbians send a few nice words your way, that is because they feel pity and are just humoring you.  They probably feel that it isn’t really their place to correct you on your journey to wherever it is in the gay world you are going.

The point of saying these things is not to shame and humiliate, but to let certain people know the truth of what they are doing with their lives.  We all gravitate towards the groups and communities with which we naturally find affinity.  Gay men may find a place in the gay community.  TG/Trans* used to find a place in the gay or lesbian community, though over time they found themselves excluded and formed their own trans* affiliations.  This last is important, because often TG/trans* people mistake their lack of comfort in the gay community as a sign they are special and belong somewhere else, when really they are struggling to create a new identity within the gay community and are facing pushback from gays and lesbians who do not want this new niche created.  The trans* argument, then, is largely with the GLBT and not society as a whole in many cases.  Though when you have a the-whole-world-is-against-me lifestyle its easy to get your perceived enemies all mixed up.

Transsexual people, of course, find no affinity with the gay and lesbian community unless they happen to be gay or lesbian themselves.  We seek out like-minded men and women in our own communities to form friendships the same as any other man or woman.  There is no special requirement for the groups we join because we are just like the people around us, and thus we feel an “affinity” for mainstream culture the same as everyone else.  This isn’t done as a slap in the face to “other trans* people”, or as some political statement against the GLBT, or to run from who we really are.  We find a home here and form friendships here because that really is who we are.  We aren’t pretending to be straight.  We are straight.  I don’t think too many of us expect people in the GLBT to understand this, but we do expect you all to respect it.

It’s very important that this pollyanna illusion of what is possible for crossdressers and effeminate gay men is dispelled.  How often does trans* have a happy ending?

Regardless of who someone ‘really is’, there are choices we all make.  I don’t worry too much about judging who was born with the transsexual syndrome and who wasn’t because the answer is rather obvious, even to people who are deep in denial.  That’s because the outcome of any transition is pre-ordained:  If you are transsexual you go down one path, one with a known outcome and positive ending.  If you are TG/trans* you go down another path, a much shorter one.  Your choices have consequences, and you can’t have it both ways as the TG try to do.  Some choices are either/or, and permanent.  And if a transsexual person makes the wrong choice, choosing to be TG because they have been fooled by the propaganda, the consequences are just as disastrous as if they hadn’t transitioned at all.  Choose wisely.

If you are a woman or a man, then that’s what you must be.  There are no excuses.  There is no second place.  There is no comfortable spot between genders specially tailored for each individual, transsexual or otherwise.  The lack of a 3rd gender space for people who don’t feel like dealing with society’s standards is not a civil rights issue.  It’s a fashion statement.  Fashion statements will never be writ into law.

The lack of social acceptance for the sexual fluidity of people who are uncomfortable with their sexual orientation, and who often find themselves toying with “gender” as a result, is not a cause to march in the streets in its own right.  It’s not a special sub-category that deserves its own letter.  It falls firmly in the world of gay issues.  Accepting yourself and your sexuality is the answer, not following some pied piper touting gender theory.  This, however, has nothing to do with transsexualism.

If you grasp at transsexualism to deal with your sexual orientation related issues, you are taking a wrong turn.  This path is not for anyone but the born transsexual.  It is not simply one of the many wonderful life journeys people make; it will lead you to misery and ruin.  Gay men who transition will end up like Josef Kirchner.  Crossdressers need to get it under control as well, or you will drive off your families and end up alone like all the people who populate the gender groups.  Letting your sexual hobby get the best of you will damage your families forever.

There is no such thing as “a little bit transsexual”.   Just in case you were wondering.

Just in case

August 16, 2010


I think a very important point was brought up in comments and I am going to repost it up here. I am tired of the accusation that we (transsexual history women, whatever you want to call us) are responsible for the way transgender is viewed in society because we point out that it is synonymous with “crossdresser” now. The people who follow the transgender banner have done that all by themselves; the public is not blind. Don’t blame us- it’s your own fault.

It is not we who have defined the “transgender” term. It is the transgender themselves who have done so by their own actions. When someone appears publicly as a full time transvestite, and speaks for the “transgender”, the public sees what it sees. It has nothing to do with us at all, and me simply pointing out the truth is not the cause of their problems.

They need to accept responsibility for their own lives and not put it off on women like us, or on the general public. If they think killing the messenger is going to solve their problems they are sadly mistaken.

If you are concerned about young people under 21 being slammed with a sexual fetishist label because of the stink surrounding transgender, you should take it up with the people who define it to mean everyone from post-transsexual women to sexual fetishists. They, not the formerly silent we, are solely responsible for this sad state of affairs.

What women like me are doing is trying to create an escape route for those who were born with this issue. You don’t have to choose to be “transgender”. Your life is your own, and it does not belong to anyone but you. Forcing young women to submit to the transgender label is disgusting and absolutely outrageous.


Since I can’t post any more on that thread at Pam’s for some mysterious reason, I am going to continue here.

Autumn is fond of quoting the rather few detractors of post transsexual women as proof we are in the same boat as the transgender. She holds up these kinds of statements as proof we are linked:

“[T]hrough surgery and hormones, a transsexual male can be made to look like a woman, including female genitalia and breasts. Transsexual medical treatment, however, does not create the internal sexual organs of a woman, except for the vaginal canal. There is no womb, cervix or ovaries in the post-operative transsexual female.

“[T]he male chromosomes do not change with either hormonal treatment or sex reassignment surgery. Biologically, a post-operative female transsexual is still a male…

…”There are some things we cannot will into being. They just are.”

I submit that when she does this, it is not the Peter LaBarbera’s of the world saying it, it is Autumn herself. She believes this in her heart of hearts. She sees us as the same and thus demands the right to speak for us all. She is no different than the transsexual deniers when it comes to rejecting the science behind the cause of our condition.

So what is it going to be Autumn? Forget the whole who-is-a-woman argument, that is a red herring that has been played like a trump card in transgender arguments for too long, and it’s beginning to stink.

Do you believe that we have a physiological birth condition or not?


I posted a reply on Pam’s House Blend in a thread that has devolved into the usual name calling from the transgender contingent. I’m reposting it here in case it gets deleted because I think it’s an important point at the heart of the dispute with those who follow the transgender banner.

The main issue is Autumn’s reduction of all of transsexualism to a matter of how people “self identify”, despite anyone’s wishes, beliefs, or mounting scientific evidence. Which is to say, Autumn will allow us to be “transwomen”, not women, if we toe the transgender line and accept that Autumn has the power to grant or deny identity based on being a priestess in the transgender order. It’s about power and control.

This isn’t just a problem in the transgender area, its a problem with all dogmatic belief systems. The person who pushes their personal beliefs onto others can’t grasp that they aren’t expressing truth, they are asserting power over other individuals. Their belief system takes on a life of its own and begins to consume people who want nothing to do with it. This is a human failing, not a cause to be celebrated.

Autumn snidely refers to our genitals as a way of asserting that control:


Autumn won’t respect the reality of our lives or the condition we were born with. How can Autumn then demand that others respect the way Autumn “identifies”?

It isn’t about who can afford surgery or who is pretty or any of the other things thrown out there to distract. It is not about waving around credentials to see who is “real”. It is about the very real lives of people who are impacted by the false linking of our birth condition to same sex marriage issues and the whole slew of transgender abuse that is heaped on us by true believers of that religion. It is about the fact that some people are born different and we are being labeled, stigmatized and told we don’t exist. How is what Autumn does to us any different than what Blanchard, Zucker, or any of the rest does to us?

This whole thread is a monument to why it is necessary to recreate a separate category for “transsexual”. Minorities are usually ill-served by people that speak for them who are outside their minority category. Regardless of how people “identify” (what an insulting term), there exists a distinct category of people who suffer from a real biological issue that effectively destroys their lives until it is cured. This is what’s important to remember.

This shouldn’t be about some person’s crusade to raise themselves up at the expense of others. Our lives are more than simply a matter of how we “identify”. Our lives are real. Our issues are our own, and not the same as those who follow the TG path. It is not for the TG to assert their political will over us. And realizing these things, it is not for the TG pushers to destroy that difference in the public mind by erasing distinctions, erasing reality, in order to assure that we are the targets of the same discrimination they face- which wasn’t ours in the beginning and still isn’t to this day.

The fact that we even have to have these discussions at this point is an embarrassment for a transgender movement that is supposed to be based on respect. You want respect, you have to give respect. I’ll begin thinking about respecting the “transgender movement” when it stops talking about my genitals as a joke, or miracle of miracles, at all. They wouldn’t talk about other women’s crotches like that in public, why is it ok to do that to us? The list of grievances go on.

Our lives belong to each of us, individually. No political dogmatist owns any of us. We don’t owe allegiance to anyone, least of all people who would do us harm. And that means everyone here. If a cause is right and just, it doesn’t need to be forced onto other people. People will move toward a shining beacon of their own accord.

Think before you go any further down this path; there is an opportunity for real change that hasn’t existed before now. There are two paths. One leads somewhere good, and one leads nowhere. Which will it be?

Enough with the New Media’s self-appointed glitterati already

June 9, 2010

Jennifer picked up on a post from Ms Sandeen today. Over at Pam’s Ms Sandeen is desperately trying to stay relevant by ghoulishly exhuming the story of Mike Penner, who took his own life in a suicide after an aborted attempt at transition.  Not content to let the dead rest, Ms Sandeen has used the excuse of an article in this month’s Gentleman’s Quarterly to suck the air out of the room once again by making everything about Ms Sandeen. (The blurb available online is lovingly filed under the Men’s Lives section. Go figure.)

…as well as my own experiences with bipolar disorder — a disorder that Christine and I both were diagnosed with — I believe I have as good a picture as I’m ever going to have on Christine’s day after Thanksgiving Day, 2009, death from suicide.

I lost relationships with family members as part of my social transition.

The stresses that came with — and at the same time as — my transition,

…well, all those stresses had a lot to do with how I became medically retired.

I know that had been my work situation as a transitioning, bipolar woman– well, I don’t work anymore because of the stresses I went through.

I feel my own gains from transition have left me with a more centered and more focused life, but I paid for those gains with personal losses.

…but I did trade one set of gender related issues for a different set of gender related issues; I did trade one set of problems for what I believed would be a more bearable set of problems.

I expected that when I was through socially transitioning…

I knew there would be losses, and I’ve paid…

Her passing is now, in a way, one of my transition related losses.

What a nauseating display of egocentrism. One wonders how Mike Penner and the rest of the world survived as long as we did with all this happening to Ms. Sandeen.

The article in GQ does raise some good questions.

What happened? Why did he transition back? Why, after all the therapy, all the heartache, all the crippling fear and anxiety, would he have stopped taking hormones, stopped getting electrolysis, stopped living as the woman he burned for decades to be? And when he did return to being Mike Penner, why wasn’t that enough to stop his fatal decline?

Whether Mike Penner was a transsexual or a transvestite, the answer is simple in either case. For a transvestite to transition is the death of their personal world. The life they knew is gone forever- and there is no going back. What does a person do when they make a mistake like that? You either continue going further and further off the deep end into transgender unreality, or you do what Mike Penner did.

In the other scenario, for a transsexual to transition in a highly public fashion is to be known forever after as a man in a dress. For a classic transsexual this very likely to result in a more literal death. (Those who don’t know why this is so do not share the condition)

Those who went public in the past (often not by choice) will know what I am talking about at this point in time. Due to all the crossdresser “education” about the transsexual condition, the public does not get to hear the truth. Transsexual voices are drowned out and people will simply think you are a crazy full-time transvestite if you try to explain what transsexual really means.

The people who made their stories known in the past would not do so in today’s environment. How many classic transsexual people do you see in the news or on television today? There is more than one reason we stay quiet in public about this issue. Nobody wants to go through the transvestite circus. This has the insidious secondary effect of ensuring that only tv/cd voices are heard, and thus becomes self-perpetuating.

By smearing the unavoidable pre-transition/pre-op state together with blatant male transvestitism, the transgender fanatics hope to confuse the two separate issues. The aim is to trick people into believing first that there is a relationship between the two, and eventually that there is no condition but the transvestic one being portrayed in the media. True transsexuals do not have a tendency to flaunt themselves in the media- it will destroy your sense of self and prevent the cure to your problem. Those who embrace the term transgender will find themselves rejecting it eventually- or they will never be cured of the transsexual malady.

And that’s what it’s really about; this horrible, horrible advice that the transvestites give to people. Portraying themselves as experts on this fictitious “transgender condition”, they tell other transvestites to transition, and they tell transsexual people to be “out”. Both of these things will cause so much harm to the people involved it’s outrageous that backers of the tg fantasy are still out there saying these things. Especially with suicides like Mike Penner’s in plain view for all to see. These crossdressing people who are still saying these things with the demonstrable harm this dogma causes must have completely slipped their moorings, both moral and those that link them to reality.

So enough with these self-appointed new media types. Anyone can get loud and annoying and try to make a name for themselves. The internet market, so to speak, shows signs that it is tiring of these loudmouths too. The shelf life on “transgender” and its acolytes has passed its due date. The proverbial 15 minutes is an eternity when you are dealing with certain people.

There are rumors going around that Ms Sandeen has been asked not to appear at any more protests after that little stunt at the White House. Sounds like people are getting finally getting fed up.

Time for some retirements, starting with Autumn Sandeen.


May 13, 2010

Pripyat was the company town for the Chernobyl facility.  It was home to 50,000 people whose lives revolved around keeping the reactors glowing.  Happy workers make for good production, and nuclear energy was a high priority for the government of the old Soviet Union.  So in a land of scarcity the residents of Pripyat were perhaps a little more equal than others.  Pripyat had all the trappings of a consumer city in the West, including an amusement park.

Today Pripyat is a ghost town.  It was evacuated in the immediate aftermath of the Chernobyl meltdown as panicked people fled.  They left life as they knew it and all their worldly possessions behind in the rush to escape the poisonous clouds drifting from the facility that had only yesterday been the source of their good fortune.

Today though the people have long gone, Pripyat yet stands.  It is a city frozen in time; a snapshot of the moment when its inhabitants disappeared on that fateful day 25 years ago.  Chalkboards still have lessons in the schools, plates sit on tables for meals that were never eaten.  Empty windows stare lifelessly at dead streets.


I was chatting with Cassandra the other day, reflecting on how much has changed on the internet with the whole TG thing.  In the early to mid 2000’s there was a party atmosphere among the TG.  ENDA was still a great hope and the DSM fight still held promise.  Anything was possible to the gender crowd, even the normalization of clothing fluidity for men, the transgender thesis which became “gender expression” in later days.

There was so much positive energy among the gender crowd, everyone from casual crossdressers to full time transvestites came out of their closets and formed an identity out of their behavior.  Effeminate gay men, long vilified by their own community and the country at large  became “non op transsexuals” to escape the stigma, spurred on by example of the crossdressers and the cheerleading of therapists following a misguided theory of sexual identity.  A virtual rainbow of behavior presented itself for public inspection- and demanded rights.

This was the height of transgender.

The contrast with today is striking.  With the twin hammer blows of a hostile DSM revision and the specter of a transsexual-only ENDA looming, the party atmosphere is long gone.  People have been quietly leaving the ranks of the TG and returning to their closets, shedding their aquired identities.  The explosion of transvestite vanity pages is a thing of the past.  Blogs fall silent.  Even the militant activists are resigned.  No champagne or streamers to be found anywhere.

Looking around the net at old messageboards and other transgender venues is like looking at Pripyat.  It’s a reminder of a time already past.  Only the clean up crew remains and soon even they will have to recuse themselves.  Their source of power, the transgender reactor core, has melted down and what once sustained life is now completely toxic.  Transgender has consumed itself and left only pollution behind.  And someday even that will disappear.