A New Paradigm

January 2, 2011

The state of transsexualism, 2011

The start of a new year is an auspicious time for turning over a new leaf.  The last 2 years have seen a great shift in the area formerly known as trans.  Identity politics is on the decline and with it the force that held the fragile trans model together politically.  No longer is it necessary to toe the line of transtalk when discussing this issue, though it can still require fortitude to overcome the conditioned aversion that has been laid over us all.  The idea that being TS is “hate” is still prevalent, and this must change.  This will happen because the bullies have given back the ground they took and are still in retreat.

My hope for the near future is that men and women in transition may speak their mind completely free from the control scheme and bullying that fettered the area before.  This is possible because internally within the trans world, there are clear lines being redrawn even now between crossdressers, people who transition due to sexual orientation, and people born with the transsexual birth defect.  They are doing it themselves, out of what they believe to be political necessity.  It is too little, too late.

This is in no small part due to the dogged determination of a dedicated few who persisted in the face of the absolute onslaught sent their way during the last several years.  And along with  that, some of the more outrageous behavior of the trans-people had the leading figures shaking their heads and reconsidering the wisdom of trying to represent the interests of lifestyle artists and intersex in the same breath.  This is a paradigm shift in the trans world.

It is time for the transsexual area to evolve.  In the past we had been clasped into chains by people who want to establish hierarchy and raise themselves up at the expense of everyone else.  As TG increasingly took ownership of the word transsexual, they brought with them this notion that there are degrees of transsexualism and that some transsexuals are better than others.  The flurry of so-called narratives became diagnostic of what “type” of TS you were.  This must change.

There are no legitimate hierarchies here.  You either are or you aren’t.  You do, or you don’t.  That’s all there is to it.  All the different narratives are simply expressions of the things we experience as we go through life- they are not indicative of being TS in and of themselves.  This is a result of the psychiatric ownership of this issue to this date, where we are judged based on who we have sex with and what our mothers may or may not have done properly in our upbringing.  Completely left out of the equation was the primary problem that led to all the others; the eventual absolute alienation from your own body that every TS person arrives at.  Everything flows from that, and if you don’t put the cart before the horse as the sexologists and TG do, every TS “narrative” will make perfect sense in light of circumstance.  This would make it easy to account for such things as societal attitudes growing up, family background, feelings about sexual stereotypes, or any of the other things that currently confuse many when trying to understand this condition.

If there is a measure of degree at all here, it is the speed with which one arrives at this point of no return, not the nature of what is reached.  I suppose some of the anger that arises, a lot probably, is the equivalence drawn between people who are obviously enjoying their “journey” and TS people who have known nothing but misery before transition.

To be transsexual is to grow up watching your body become twisted into a form so grotesque you can’t bear your image in the mirror.  You are so deformed that other people can’t even see who you really are, and you lose the ability to interact socially as a result.  To be transsexual is to walk the earth as a ghost, seeing everything but touching nothing.

Some people reflect on these kinds of things and think “I don’t hate my body so much.  You know, like hate it, hate it…”, and think there is something amiss somewhere.  This is often a matter of time, perspective, and personality.  It’s difficult to quantify something like the loathing of ones sexual characteristics.  It is such an odd state of being with no comparison for people to make judgments that it can be very confusing to “diagnose” oneself.  How can you know what the difference between being comfortable with your body and not, if you have nothing to compare it to?  Indifference can either be a perception of congruence with your body… or it could be what we tell ourselves when we don’t actually “like” it, one of the coping mechanisms TS people use to get through life before transition.  This is what led to the confusion with TG in the first place.  Also, there are many other defense mechanisms in place that cloud memories and confuse issues after the fact.  Many people face more than just the TS problem in their lives and the longer you go without fixing it, the more mixed up the world will seem as everything conflates.

There are other cosmetic differences to consider as well.  If you manage to figure out on a conscious level the nature of the problem you face (more common now than in the past), your perception of the issue will be very different than someone who reached the final point of collapse and burns in agony at their very existence.  I believe this is the main source of the confusion for psych practitioners about so-called “primary” and “secondary” transsexuals.  They have constructed a spectrum solution to the problem that doesn’t see the actual spectrum they try to describe.  They put all transsexual experience at one end into a single point and dismiss anything that does not conform, even while they construct what they believe to be a sliding scale of “gender behavior”.

If there were degrees to transsexualism, they still would not correspond to degrees of stereotyped sex-role behavior as they believe.  As a result of this “expert help”, people who are TS go through life increasingly miserable thinking that because they do not fit the crazy stories that psychs tell they must not be TS.  And people who have no business taking hormones and getting surgery are called “transsexual” by iatrogenic artifact.  This must change, and is changing even now.

It is time for a blanket amnesty for all of us.  We must stop using the words of our enemies to describe each other.  No more accusing people of being autogynephiles, or judging each other by the difficulties or blessings we have been born into.  No more acceptance of bigotry toward sexual orientation.  We must stop playing into the hands of people who divide and conquer, and stop trying to qualify each others birth defects based on the false criteria of the past.  We must dismiss “narrative” from our lexicon, and dismiss sexology from our lives entirely.

We need a diversity of voices coming together as one.  Straight and gay, poor and rich.  People from all walks of life with the same message:  We are men and women, without qualification.

Men and women.  Always and forever.

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In a recent December letter, Anne Lawrence bemoans the DSM-5 Gender “Incongruence” sub-committee’s recommendations.  As some have noted, the new proposed standards include an exit clause for anyone who feels they are transitioned enough, which bothers Lawrence probably because it doesn’t allow her to continue to be “transsexual” since she is supposed to be treated.  And it’s just not stigmatizing enough- it frees people too quickly.

But what’s more important, and less remarked, is that they propose doing away with describing different types of TS.  This is an amazing development, and very encouraging.  The two type nonsense is dead, the unitary phenomenon view is on the rise.

Despite the population of the “GID” committee with people who are completely hostile to the notion of biological TS, there are enough other people out there who know better and are willing to speak out.  This may suggest a consideration that the increasing biological evidence presents an insurmountable problem for talk therapists.  It is only strange that it took this long for such a recognition given that the basis of TS treatment was that it was not amenable to any kind of cure; talk, electroshock, drugs, imprisonment, or otherwise.  The worm is indeed turning.

In the United States our situation is very different than in countries where they have government run health care.  In those countries, medical authority is wielded with all the force of the government, and if patients want treatment for something considered new or unproved they often face the uphill battle of trying to prosecute a case against an intractable bureaucracy.  And even if successful, what is given can easily be taken away.  You must petition the government for special rights and privileges in many of these places, and you end up with things like that UK Gender Act of 2004, which creates a special status rather than simply switching you from one column to the other.  While imperfect, it’s at least a path to change that allows unchallenged marriages for some.

Here in the States, it’s a wide open field.  We don’t need to go begging the psych establishment hat in hand for the ability to transition.  The legal structure that allows this has already been in place for decades and we have made small gains despite the TG interference.  These gains are trumpeted as wins for the TG paradigm, but that is simple rebranding and propaganda.  A couple states have liberalized legal sex change requirements, but you must still find a doctor to certify that you have completed clinical treatment. This will be more difficult to get with the coming changes, something that is not good for anyone.  In fact, a few states have actually become more restrictive in granting these changes, but this isn’t something that affects post ops very much.  It’s more of a pain, but you can usually gather the material with a little more effort.  This, in fact, is what the TG have accomplished, shooting us all in the foot.  And nothing more.

The good news is that anyone who wants to can transition and have almost universal access to change the few things you need to address with the government- and without the psychs.  In 47 of 50 states, you can change your birth certificate.  In all 50 states you can change your driver’s license.  And upon presentation of a surgery letter to the Social Security administration, you can change your “federal sex” for almost all purposes, without a birth certificate.  Taxation, marriage, other things of that sort.  Some states completely observe our marriages and even in those where it is dodgy at best, such as Texas, there are opportunities for positive outcomes.  Things are still very, very good for us.  But they can be better.

We are very close to being able to cement our rights in terms of legal sex designation.  The only thing that should concern men and women of TS background is whether or not our paperwork carries the same weight as everyone else’s.  That’s all we need.  This solves our marriage issue without reference to same-sex marriage  and completely extricates us from the gay world.  This, along with the new escape clause from the psychs that is probably forthcoming removes the institutional stigma that has dogged us all these years.  It rescues us from the realm of the TG and the process of repairing the public perception of this birth defect will begin in earnest.

The best part about this is that it is all for the individual to choose, we are all free to do whatever we wish.  We define ourselves by our actions:  Those who are TS will cure and move on.  Those who aren’t will remain where they are by choice, and have no one to blame but themselves.  There is no judgment but what we deem of ourselves.  And also no one to blame for living in the ghetto.

It also has the merit of not feeding into a creation of a forced 3rd sex category, as all the TG efforts have to date.  Their agenda has been completely detrimental to our rights and needs.  Their gains would have been our losses.  It is sad that was the path that was chosen, and it will be a blessing to be separated from people whose goal is to radically alter society.  Whether or not you agree with that goal, it should be for the individual to choose.  It is not right to conscript a minority of people, who have a birth defect, as a battering ram at society’s gate to enforce your views and social agenda on the vast majority of he public.  And it was an effort doomed to failure in any case.

It is sad that those who would be transgender chose to attack and destroy us rather than recognize our differences and embrace acceptance of one another.  It does not make me happy to see so many people drowning in misery, regardless of the animosity that has characterized this area and the wars that have been waged against us in the media by these people.  It is with nothing but relief that I recount this sea change, this closing of the transgender chapter.  It is a great weight lifted from our shoulders.

Along with the new leaf we are turning over regarding authenticity, we must also establish a new paradigm for presenting the transsexual syndrome in the years to come.  Freed from the fetters of gender theory, a herculean task remains; construct our own.  While the legal victories in the years to come will no doubt provide the individual with everything they need to complete transition, the establishment of a truthful paradigm for transsexualism will prevent problems from arising in the future.  The concept is already deeply rooted in the public mind; it requires only the water and sunlight it has been starved of all these years in order to blossom.

This is my challenge to all of you who would write the future.

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The Trouble with Harry

December 16, 2010

A pre-postscript:

Some people I respect felt I was too harsh on Harry Benjamin, and I thought about it a little more and in some aspects they are right.  I am rather upset that Harry’s scale was constructed the way it was, and I do believe he could have done a lot more to speak on his belief that transsexuals are a distinct group, if he did believe that.  It’s difficult to tease it out of the text itself but if others see it I am not going to contradict them.

I still believe it was a grave disservice to us when he decided to put it all together the way he did, and this is the main point of my post.  The results of his book are the real issue.  My effort here was directed at  pointing out the spots where people commonly try to misuse the work to blur and obfuscate.

In light of all that, one thing stands out about Harry.  Despite whatever he may have personally thought about the condition, it didn’t matter when it came to helping people.  He was professional enough, and compassionate enough, to do what was right.  It’s a rare individual who can put misgivings aside and do what is proper in the face of overwhelming opposition from ones’ peers and the public.  He may have not been the perfect humanitarian, but he was a caring human.  That’s far more than can be said by the vast majority of the people who attempt to own the transsexual area with their academic credentials and committee-driven “medicine”.

I don’t believe in a devil.  I do believe in human avarice, moral weakness, and greed.  Those who torment us, who attempt to shame us and control us do so because it benefits them.  I can think of no better definition of evil than humans who attempt to raise themselves up and profit at others’ expense.  And these are the sorts of people we face when we attempt to avoid the chains of bondage they would lay on us.  The effort they make with their endless faux internet personalities is nothing to them.  They create tools to hurt and torture and then throw them away when done.  The cost to we who fight them is great, both in terms of thought and emotion.  That is why so few make the attempt.

There is such a thing as right and wrong.  It is measured by how we treat others.  And these people who attack us relentlessly are very much in the wrong.  It’s ok to recognize that, to speak accordingly and with great conviction.  That is the first step to ending this farce.  No matter how arrogant or condescending they may seem, always consider the source.  These people have no right to cast any stones and they only do so as a tactic to cow anyone who stands up to them.  Laugh in their face, do not be intimidated.

We are in need of a new paradigm.  It’s time to build on the work of Harry Benjamin and the few others who have spoken on this issue with any degree of wisdom… and go beyond.  That is progress, something sorely lacking in many areas lately.  One of the reasons I use transsexualism right now instead of terms like HBS or others I’ve heard is because I think we need to do some custodial work clean up the mess made over the word “transsexual” before we can move on.  Nothing is ever perfect, and not all damage can be undone so easily.  But it doesn’t have to be, does it?  Sometimes there is such a thing as good enough.  Simple lines have to be drawn, and people must be free to choose, finally given good information.

I am content to let others choose the new name and build whatever must be built in the years to come.  That is the work of the future.  The work for people like me, and any others who choose to take up the task,  is now.  We must handle the nasty garbage thrown our way in these dying days of the transgender and sexologist religion.  And then the work of building anew can begin.

I’ll post on this New Years Day.  That’s always a good time for new beginnings.

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The first thing in any discussion about TS should be an analysis of where our ideas about the condition originate.  Much of our current thinking still comes from Harry Benjamin, despite the fact that modern science has completely discredited his scale.  It’s an unfortunate fact that Harry got a lot wrong in his musings, and Harry’s mistakes continue to bedevil the area today.  Blowhards and fakes continue to hold up this scale to puff up their own egos and lord their “superior” condition over others who are in the process of correcting nature’s mistake.  This is often done to enact some ridiculous agenda, and in some cases to salve a deeply wounded ego.

Harry was enamored of the idea of “inversion”, a 19th Century conceptualization of homosexuality.  It was originally thought that being gay was a form of being trapped in the wrong body.  This seems funny to us today because we have a very different idea about what is essential to the sexes, but at the time it was a plausible “theory”.

At some point it was realized that “inversion” was false, and that men who were attracted to other men… were still men.  It is not necessary to be a woman in order to experience that particular orientation.  And vice versa for women.  So in many ways this degradation of today’s sexology into “psycho sexual inversion” is a return to the ignorant 19th century. (Thank you for pointing this out Hipparkhia)

Benjamin tried to take all behaviors of people born with penises and force them together on a scale demarcated by this inversion concept.  Even at the time it was a clumsy, atavistic attempt to merge quite different phenomena together.  To a “sexologist”, having a penis is the equivalent of the patient in question stipulating that they have a “male brain”.  It doesn’t rise to that level of consciousness in these people who are utterly fascinated by the sex act.  They simply assume the sexual organs are the source of all personality and anything that runs counter to their expectations is “deviant” and in need of study and correction.

As a friend recently told me after reading The Transsexual Phenomenon, Harry was no humanitarian.  He had uncharitable thoughts about homosexuality and viewed transvestites and transsexuals as similarly disordered people.  (The expansion of the “disorder” term to intersex is in large part thanks to modern sexologists)  This is what Harry had to say about all these conditions he blended together:

The transvestite has a social problem.
The transsexual has a gender problem.
The homosexual has a sex problem.

Now, few people would argue that homosexuality and transvestism are related at this point.  So why is it so difficult to separate transvestites from transsexuals?  Thanks to sexologists we have gone back in time, and if you read through their recent papers in such places as the Archives of Sexual Behavior you’ll see they are even trying to rope gay men and lesbian women back into this scheme through studies of left handedness and other phrenology.  This is their “unified field theory” of queerness.  And it was Harry himself who conceptualized TS as a gender delusion.

The figure below is Harry’s infamous scale, the source of all the trouble.

There are a few things to note about this proposed categorization.  One, we must always remember that Harry was a sexologist and saw the world through the lens of the sex act.  Anything that deviated from his idea of procreative sex trended towards uselessness and constituted some kind of error, whether psychological or biological. (current problem-children sexologists maintain this view)  Next you’ll see that the Kinsey scale is also applied on the chart in an attempt to link this concept to Harry’s own work.  This is one of the more common observations made about Harry’s scale, but its still important to note.

Next, you can see the connection to today’s problems with the BBL clique by its blurring of the symptoms between the transvestite and the transsexual.  A type 3 transvestite may have dual personalities, for instance, and this was thought to “trend towards transsexualism”.  Today, we know they are completely separate things only sharing a few symptoms at times.  Overreliance on the therapist’s opinions about the meaning of symptoms changes the nature of the condition being diagnosed.  This isn’t a diagnosis; it’s quackery.

This has lead to much confusion, and if you look at the entire chart with a modern eye the whole thing is a mess.  Sex is mixed with gender is mixed with sexuality.  It’s all based on how often the person in question crossdresses.  So this is, in effect a scale of crossdressery and therefore flawed from the inception.  It surely doesn’t help that so much of his book on transsexualism concerns transvestites (for some reason) and the contributions of one Virginia Prince.

On one hand Harry could see that there was some biology involved (read that chapter in the book), but as a sexologist Harry preferred to regard the transsexual dilemma as a “gender problem”.  This fact cooperated with the later “gender revolution” to produce the silly mess we have today.  In a later paper he wrote:

Perhaps the chain starts with the hippie movement (with its long haired boys and trousered girls) and continues with the effeminate, but otherwise normal man, and its parallel, the masculine woman.  A further manifestation may only be concerned with the direction of the sex urge.  Perhaps then it could result in one of several forms of homosexual behavior.

Next on the scale may be the transvestite.  First the one who merely wants to wear the clothes of the opposite sex, then the one who -in addition- likes to acquire some of the other’s physical characteristics through hormone therapy.  Finally, there is the true transsexual whose craving aims to bring the entire body into harmony with the mind, by every means medical science can provide, including surgery.

You can see the extremely speculative nature of the Benjamin theory, later disproven, right there.  It’s merely a variety of “if it ain’t straight, it’s queer”.  The unified field theory continued to elude him.

One of the best parts of the chart though is the third row down, right side.  This one is for all the effeminate gay men who think they own the “type VI” category.  If you’ll look at the type V and type VI categories, Harry observed that either may have been married with children prior to transition.  And despite the changes to society over the years, this is still true.  Due to the misrepresentation of the transsexual condition as some kind of crossdressing perversion, or an option for certain gay men and lesbian women to play at being the opposite sex, many young transsexual people will not seek treatment.  This is a tragedy created and compounded by the BBL clique and their insistence on lumping “TG” and “TS” together, as well as a transgender movement that has cooperated completely with the BBL agenda.

This is where a lot of modern “somatically compliant gay men” who attempt partial transition have been confused.  And therapists comply with this confusion.  To these young gay men, the chief aspect of womanhood is making oneself ready for sex with men; they project their own desires onto women and seek the costume without wanting to actually take up the burdens and joys of actually being a woman.  And why should they?  They are men.

Being a woman to these (usually young) gay men  is being a sex object, and given their fixation on this one has to assume it is a very large component of the gay male personality for the “effeminate” types.   There is little else to being a woman in their eyes, because they are outsiders to that state of being and care nothing about it.  They do not understand the difference between being feminine, and inborn trait, and being effeminate, an act of mimicry.  In much the same way, the whole transsexual process is merely an act of mimicry for anyone not born transsexual.

Harry’s mistake in the term “complete psycho-sexual inversion” was that he regarded women who were attracted to other women as “less woman” than heterosexuals.  This reflects the sexism of the day.  Further, in order to be completely inverted, you had to be a “homosexual transsexual”.  From this sprang the stories about loving boys and never conceiving of marriage with a woman, and all the rest.  While the idea of marriage as the wrong sex is abhorrent to the TS person, life becomes complex and twisted.  It’s wrong to dismiss someone’s biological state due to a one bad choice, and I dislike this trend in certain quarters.  It’s unprofessional and unscientific. And under Harry’s scheme, it’s all too easy to diagnose a young gay male as transsexual based on these kinds of urban myths.

Today these exigencies of life are used against people born transsexual to shame them, and make them feel like a “lesser transsexual” by those with a more typically gay background.  But according to Harry himself, his “type VI” included a variety of people and traits.  His chief differential, as a sexologist of course, is who you slept with.  And we know how much that has to do with what kind of person you are; nothing.

The take home from this chart which encapsulates Harry’s philosophy is that Harry got it wrong, as another friend remarked recently.  He did state that:

“These speculations in symptomology are not meant to indicate a common etiology”

What a weak “apology” after the definitive argument made in his book!  Harry tried to leave himself a lot of wiggle room, but his conclusions come across in the end as anything but equivocal.

Today we know that gay men are not “related” to women.  Male effeminacy is a gender performance by gay men which attempts to mimic the neurologically-based “femininity” of women.  The brains of gay men are, if anything, “over androgenized” with respect to other men.  They are not “under androgenized” relative to men as would be the case with women, or MtF transsexuals.  The brain work slowly proceeds, coming ever closer to squeezing out the sexologists entirely.

The chief danger to science at this point is the continued reliance of the scientists on assembling their findings into a gender theory.  Men do this, women do this.  This is nonsense.  This mixes their social performance aspect of “gender” with their biologically-based ideas about “gender”, producing nothing of value.  Some still seek “gender” in the brain rather than stepping back and looking at the totality of the situation that would give them the perspective to understand the whole.  We are not just the sum of our parts as defined by people in lab coats.

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I wanted to end on a note about why I write on these topics.  I know that many people worry over these things in their transition, and sometimes even after surgery.  This is due to the confusion sown by people who try to profit at our expense.  I don’t write things to justify myself; my life is all the justification I need.  I write to give people the information they need to fight back against the vultures and ghouls who have been preying on us for all these years.

A critic recently wrote of my quoting brain differences between us and gay men and said, “What does that have to do with being a type VI transsexual?”  The answer is; absolutely nothing.

But it has everything to do with being a woman.

We are different from the modern version of the gay type VI in the same way we are different from men.  Our minds are female at the elemental level, and we are women in that aspect our whole lives.  It never changes, and we never have to “perform gender”.  Those who fail to understand this are not transsexual.

We must stop allowing people to grade us and rank us according to their whim.  It is not their place to do so.  This fight against the sexologists is gradually drawing to a close.

This is a war we can win!

The first step is to reject those who place themselves in the role of master by simply acting as though it is theirs by right and seeing if everyone lets them get away with it.  They can only do this with our consent.  So don’t give it, and don’t be fooled.  Hucksters often set themselves up as indispensable authorities. Don’t let others control how you feel about yourself.

Always consider the motives of the strangers who show up on the internet with sterling tranny credentials and an agenda.  Don’t believe everything you are told.  Question everything.

And above all, be well. 🙂


Transsexualism has zero to do with being gay

November 30, 2010

As I wrote before, there is currently a campaign to erase true transsexuals from the books and replace them with effeminate gay men and transvestites.  There are some serious obstacles in the way for those who pursue this though.  Hard science contradicts their wishes, and their own soft-science evidence often does as well.

When I pointed out that transsexual children (reproductively male) are not effeminate, I had a specific purpose in mind.  While it is true that these children displayed little outward sign of the true problem, that is because by that point the window of opportunity for observing them had passed.  There is no data at all on true ts children prior to this wall of silence.  At the point the child is being put to the question by a cold, authoritative figure, the child has withdrawn from the world and you will gain no insight into them whatsoever.  You other TS people will understand why this is so.  Others can just guess.

By 7-10 years of age the transsexual individual has long passed the stage where their self-knowledge can be expressed freely; the real world has come crashing in and the bleakness of their fate is clear.  Whether its the admonitions of their parents or the evidence of their own eyes, these kids are all too aware of reality.  Transsexual kids have a physical birth defect; that doesn’t mean they are crazy.

So while the “effeminate” young boy (pre-homosexual) is expressing himself freely with gender play and his open mannerisms, such things are clearly forbidden to the transsexual child and serve only as a reminder of the horror that awaits them later in life.  As time goes on, dreams are dashed before they were dreamt, and the future descends into a dark cloud of sadness.  The affectations of gender as social play are meaningless to the TS child.  And this is where you can draw clear distinction between the young pre-homosexual and the TS child.

Of course this says nothing about the child before this point, during that window when they could be observed.  And in fact these TS kids appear to be completely left out of the literature.  I hope it stays that way for a long time, long enough for the current crop of sexologist jerks to be pushed aside.  But assuming you could watch them, they would probably seem no different from the other boys and girls… until the onset of self-knowledge when they clam up and fall silent to the world.  The reasons for their behavior and lack of obvious cues will be completely inexplicable to sexologists who assume everything is about sexual orientation.  I could explain it to them clearly, and it would simply pass in one ear and out the other.

In fact, Zucker’s own work shows that “non-gay” kids have no preference as to who they play with, while “pre-gay” kids prefer opposite sex kids as playmates more often.  Where do you suppose a transsexual child will fit in before the moment of clarity that silences them?  This will further confound the researcher who wants to study these kids as if they are little lab rats.  The more these hacks bathe in their own theorizing the less they actually know.

I read with some amusement the writing of people who claim they were just so effeminate that they couldn’t help themselves.  They couldn’t stop themselves from making out with boys when they hit puberty, and the reason they want a sex change (or in some cases already had one supposedly) was because they need to have sex with straight men.  Sorry to inform you, that’s just called being gay.

The only reason to get surgery is because your body is driving you mad.  All that nonsense about playing out the proper gender roles is fluff from people who have no clue about the core condition.  Sex and marriage are a result of the bodies we wear, they are huge aspects of a full life.  But they are not the cause of transsexualism.  That little lie is put out there by people who want to change the condition from a birth defect to two conditions of sexuality- namely the “HSTS” and the “AGP” argument.  These people want everyone to go along with them when they chant the mantra.

Its also interesting to see these people, claiming the top of the TG-inspired hierarchy by their “HSTS” status”, then handing out judgments on the rest based on sexual orientation.  If you aren’t an effeminate homosexual as they were, then you are an AGP.  Over the last 5 years I have seen this scenario time after time on the internet.  These are the same people pushing the same harmful agenda.  They prey on those who may in a difficult place in their life.  They are trying to get momentum behind their false little model, using people in distress as fuel.

While it is difficult to win these arguments in the “soft science” of psych literature, there are some clear differentials between homosexual men and transsexual women in the neuroscience that has been done to date.

There is a clear difference between the super-chiasmic nucleus of gay men and transsexual women.

There is a clear difference between the INAH-3 area of gay men and transsexual women.

There is a clear difference between the BSTc of gay men and transsexual women.

So already at this early point, we have three solid points of difference before we even get to EEG and fMRI.  In any other area, this would be enough to create a separate category.  But in the soft “science” of sex, we have people trying to mash everyone into the same bin because base prejudice is still acceptable there.

Thinking back to the lives of children, what would you expect from a little girl once she realizes something is very wrong?  Would you expect her to go blithely about her life, knowing that she is horribly deformed, with no ill effect whatsoever?  Knowing that everyone has labeled her wrong, would she then stupidly proceed to act out “effeminately” and chase boys as if nothing is wrong?  Of course not.  It’s the basic definition of the condition itself.  And that lack of self-knowledge would be a sign of delusion, not transsexualism.

Transsexualism is not defined by sexual orientation no matter what some people would have you believe.  When someone tries to make you feel “less than” because of who you love, treat that person as you would any random stranger started talking down to you because of your sexuality.  Don’t give self-appointed trans “experts”, whom you don’t even know past the internet persona, the power to make you feel insecure about yourself simply because you don’t fit some ancient scale that has been misapplied in the first place.

There are transsexual men, and transsexual women.  There are transsexual gay men, and transsexual lesbian women.  There are transsexual men and women who are bisexual.  Being gay, or lesbian, or bisexual is not a pathology, and neither is it diagnostic of TS.  Sexuality has no bearing on TS whatsoever.

There is only one kind of TS.  It is a birth condition that has specific characteristics.  It is not defined by sexuality, but by the sexually dimorphic brain.  Reject attempts to categorize you by your orientation.  Don’t let these people split us up.  They have succeeded at the divide and conquer strategy far too long.


The Crossdreaming Lie

November 19, 2010

There is something profoundly disturbing to women about transvestites.  Most women don’t deal with that issue much and they express little more than annoyance,  or perhaps laughter, at the sight of a man in women’s clothes.  But by virtue of our exposure to transvestites which often occurs if you follow the conventional wisdom for transition, some transsexual women develop an unwanted familiarity with the subject.  That, plus the fact that at every turn transvestite men attempt to own us.

So let me enlighten you transvestite men about they way you appear to the women who find you upsetting.  It’s the fact that you turn us into objects, hollow us out, climb inside and then act out a caricature of who we are.  It’s repulsive.  It’s scary.  And a lot of us instinctively feel it can be dangerous for some of you who take it too far.

“Jack Molay” writes a blog dedicated to attaching transvestism to transsexualism, and trying to entice transvestites to continue colonizing the transsexual birth condition, while trying to blur the lines between two completely different things.  Lines that would not exist to be blurred if these sorts of people did not create the false connection in the first place.  Molay writes:

The myth says that crossdressers and crossdreamers (men who get aroused by the idea of being a woman) become what they are when puberty hits. The myth is wrong.

There are to many crossdreamer childhood stories around for this to be true.

And:

The fact is that there are a lot of people, researchers as well as transwomen, who deny that M2F crossdressers and crossdreamers experienced gender dysphoria or gender confusion when they are kids. The idea is that since crossdreamers are purely sexually motivated, their fantasies and dreams cannot appear before puberty.

I do not doubt for a minute that some crossdreamers wanting to transition told the doctors what the doctors wanted to hear. Why shouldn’t they, when the doctors at hand were so hung up in 19th century stereotypes of what it means to be a man or a woman?

But that does not mean that their childhood memories were false. Given the stories told on this site, and all the crossdreamers I have been in contact with, I can say with 100 percent certainty that yes, many crossdreamers dreamed of being girls at a very early age.

And from this you can see where it is going.  Much the way “autogynephilia”, an iatrogenic condition created by “researchers”, mimics classic transsexuality, the AGP preachers mimic the standard transsexual narrative.  Notice the attempt to join the idea of AGP to childhood.  It’s simply a rewriting of the transsexual narrative into an autogynephilic narrative.  Just the way transvestites write themselves into women when they desire.

It’s important to differentiate between transvestites and transsexuals in this particular area because a lot of the AGP “symptoms” are taken directly from TS “symptoms”.  This is an attempt to trick TS women who are in the process of figuring things out into thinking they are merely “AGP”, so that they will pursue their surgery under AGP protocols.  If you look at the list of things claimed by “AGP” and find some of your experiences there, don’t just jump to the conclusion that’s who you are.  AGP is a carefully constructed trap that you should simply just ignore once you are satisfied as to your true state.  And you don’t need to worry about it.

The diagnostic is simple.  If you are attracted to yourself as a woman, meaning you fancy yourself for a shag when “dressed”, you are a transvestite.  If you do not experience this, but have other sexual feelings perhaps related to your “condition” in your mind, you should explore the other alternatives.  It is entirely possible that the odd condition of having a particular neurology, mixed with the attitudes society hold, plus our innate primate nature, can produce any number of “symptoms” for transsexualism.  It is also possible that “gender issues” are related to difficulties some gay men have in dealing with society’s homophobia.  As humans we internalize a great many things, and living with them can be difficult.

What makes this troubling at this point is that it is a continuation of the transvestite behavior that lead to the current situation in the first place.  Men want to domiate the transsexual issue for their own purposes.  See this?

Some of these narratives point to a childhood that is similar to the ones reported for androphilic transkids and classic transsexuals. That is, there seems to be at least three categories:

(1) Those kids that appear as “normal” boys, taking part in rough and tumble play etc. etc.
(2) Those that “pass” as boys, but display some “girl-like” behavior. They avoid rough and tumble play and do prefer more peaceful activities. I was one of them myself – a kind of “proto-nerd”, I guess. I preferred drawing to soccer and skiing, but also found building model warplanes a good thing.
(3) Those who clearly identify with girls, often cross-dress as kids and prefer playing with girls.

These are not absolute categories, I believe, but more like a gradual continuum.

This is a shmoozing of the TG continuum back into the picture.  It’s designed to appeal to people who find comfort in the idea of a spectrum.  And these quotes from the comments on that post:

On the contrary,TG is a much broader umbrella term that refers to not just the transsexuals who are at the most extreme end, but to those who for various reasons exhibit an interest in cross-gender expressions.

Afterall,I would like you to know that it is not only transsexuals who are discriminated against in society.

Transvestites are discriminated against, transsexual issues aren’t really that big a deal.

Your comments illustrate to me the issue in getting the data. We have taken ‘transsexual’ and made it the exclusive property of those who never question their feelings or the difficulties of the life of medical intervention.

It’s not fair that transsexuals have something that we don’t.  We need to take it from them.  And that’s the transvestite way.

This is how men talk themselves into doing things to other people.  This is also how men commonly excuse their abuse, though because this is still a theoretical position and not a situation involving specific people, its not entirely “fair” to characterize it like that here.  I just want to illustrate the parallels to this male behavior, and try to show some people why as women we find it upsetting.

The people “crossdreaming” is designed to entice are those crossdressing men who want to find a way to excuse their behavior.  Just like the earlier problems between transvestites and transsexual women, this is a case of identity theft.  I find it reprehensible that people like Jack Molay write blogs that attempt to erase us and take “our” issue.  Yes, Jack, transsexualism belongs to those who suffer from it.  You don’t get to waltz in and take ownership of a condition you don’t have.

There is no such thing as “crossdreaming”, because there is no such thing as “autogynephilia” in the sense pushed by these “reasearchers” such as Blanchard.  If you are a transvestite who has moved on to getting hormones and surgery, you remain a transvestite.  If you are a transsexual woman who has various “symptoms”, you remain a transsexual woman.  These people don’t get to own your experiences, and they certainly don’t get to own you.

Each person knows deep down which of these they are.  If you don’t want to be a “crossdreamer”, and instead think you are transsexual, then toe the line and do what transsexuals do.  Otherwise all of this is simply nonsense and hardly matters anyway.  Men’s issues should not eclipse women’s issues, no matter how angry at us they get.

“Try walking in my shoes, and you’ll stumble in my footsteps.”


The HSTS myth

November 17, 2010

I’ve written before about AGP, how I agree with others that its simply a way to mischaracterize the sexuality of some women of history, and I further posited that it was an attempt to blend transvestic fetishism with some of the “symptoms” that transsexual women may have experienced before transition.  Now it’s time to deal with the other weapon the sexologists use against us; the blending of youthful “effeminate” behavior with the TS narrative in order to erase the actual TS condition from the books and finish replacing us with gay and transvestite men.

The standard TS narrative is a mantra that goes something like this:  I was a feminine child who played only with girls’ toys.  I wore my mother’s clothes when I could, until my parents came down on me and forced me to stop.  I thought I was a girl until other people told me I wasn’t.  I was often bullied for being gay as a child because I was so feminine I couldn’t control my behavior.

This is what TS clients learned to tell their doctors and psychs, because that is what they wanted to hear.  Back when this story was passed from one “TS” to another in the early days, it was recited as a litany so that a person could get treatment.  So the common feeling among psychs at the time reflected this, and clients parroted back what the psychs wanted to hear.  This led to the condition later becoming conflated with being gay.  This is the problem as it stands.  The psychs (sexologists really)  currently involved with the TS area want to mislabel us as gay or transvestite, and nobody outside that little clique in the APA seems interested in putting a stop to their shenanigans.

The problem for the HSTS pushers is that the standard narrative isn’t true.  Unlike AGP, where they have managed to swirl actual “symptoms” with transvestic fetishism, the sexologists have little actual data about the early years of TS children.  The evidence that does exist  is scattershot, showing that examining the behavior of children at play is really not very diagnostic of transsexualism.  Transsexuals are only minimally represented in the literature of the time, or any time really, as being “feminine” in childhood.  Such childhood behavior is more closely associated with later homosexual orientation after sexuality emerges in puberty.  You can read a very good analysis of why “feminine behavior” is not a diagnostic of TS in childhood here.  It’s written by Curtis Hinkle, another person who is fighting against being forcibly “disordered” by the sexologists.

In many ways, the current situation grows out of the feelings of people like Richard Green who think that transsexualism is a form of being gay.  Zucker’s “work” with children who exhibit the wrong sort of behavior for their sex is a direct descendant of the sexist and hamfisted thought process of people like Green and his “sissy boy syndrome”.  To this day, we have people like Zucker and others trying to “cure” this unapproved behavior, resulting in various kinds of nonsense studies.

Yet from the very pen of the rather unsympathic Collette Chiland comes the damning analysis:

“The disorders that may lead to transsexualism in adults may thus be perfectly silent in childhood as far as an observer, parents, or teachers are concerned … the child has no clear idea why he feels bad, and will only give his trouble a name on reaching puberty.”

“An outside observer may notice that something is wrong with the child, but they cannot imagine, any more than the subject himself, that the child is suffering from a disorder of gender identity.”

“we see an isolated boy who is ill at ease, does not make friends, and does quite badly at school. But the child has no clear idea why he feels bad, and will only give his trouble a name on reaching puberty.”

And from Person and Ovesey:

“In our series of ten primary transsexuals, nine showed no evidence of effeminacy in childhood … As far as we can make out, they did not engage in girl’s activities or play with girls any more than did normal boys … All ten of our primary transsexuals were socially withdrawn and spent most of their time after school by themselves at home … In effect, they were childhood loners … ”

“to summarise, then, in childhood, the primary transsexual is not effeminate, but he feels either abhorrence or discomfort in boyish activities.”

They are describing actual transsexual children here.  This is the common experience that all transsexual children share.  It is not about being feminine and girly, or tomboyish in the case of TS men.  It is a terrible condition that instills such horror in children that they withdraw from life.

Among transsexual women there has been a sort of phenomenon discussed where older memories seem to change to match our current lives.  Others who have not experienced this think it sounds crazy, but I think it’s simply time and the brain colluding to make things fit together.  There are such disparate experiences that they can’t coexist in the mind, so one must be made to fit the other.  This results in a sort of unintentional revisionism, which may account for some of these “memories”.

Of course another aspect of this childhood memory business is the competition that exists between trans*people who buy into the standard narrative and use it in their attempts to one-up each other.  This is terrible, as it just encourages the sexologists to continue on their dark path, and discourages real TS people from getting the help they need.  One thing we see coming out of the revelation that not all TS women are “feminine” as children has been its exploitation by the non-transsexual “gender crowd” who, having lived full rich lives as fathers and husbands, think this gives them carte blanc to excuse their behavior prior to their pursuit of full time “cross gendered living”.

Exploration of these issues should never be construed as granting license to the full-time crossdressers to misappropriate transsexual narratives or treatment.

And the last place you see these narratives which I will discuss is among the online personalities that attempt to get into transsexual groups and mine them for information that can be used against them.  This is chiefly the activity of sexologist “operatives” who currently have no research subjects due to the objectionable nature of the direction they’ve taken that field.

Sexology is currently in ruins.  It has been brought into disrepute by people like Blanchard and Lawrence, and no self-respecting “sexual minority” would grace these sorts of people with their presence.  How do you study people when people are staying away in droves?  The only way to do this is by having or creating a captive audience.  This is why people like Blanchard and Zucker moved to Canada and planted themselves at the head of a deviance division in the Canadian health care system.  They want unlimited access and control over people whom they regard as nothing more than fodder for their own careers.  These are your “serious scientists” here.

But there is an opportunity for expansion.  As the DSM V is written, therein lies the ability to “pathologize” many groups, who can then be exploited by avaricious psych types who have more ambition than scruples.  In order for that to happen, these targeted groups must not resist.  Hence, the Wikipedia campaign and Internet blitzkrieg against groups such as transsexual men and women.

Slimy little worms crawl about looking for openings.  Shady characters of no background spring up suddenly, offering the hand of friendship to people who often have no friends.  A sympathetic ear listens to you pour your heart out, taking notes and building an information base on a subject that has so little substance in the literature.  And all the while, thinking of ways to use it against you.

This is the backdrop for anyone looking for help online.  Don’t trust anyone; you have it within you to do everything you need to do in order to fix your problems.  It’s already there.  While its tempting to reach out to others, in all likelihood you are going to be speaking to “transgender” people or fakes.  There are very, very few transsexual people in the world; it’s a rare birth condition.

HSTS is not another name for “primary transsexualism”, or transsexualism at all.  It is an attempt to erase actual transsexuals and replace them.

There are not two types of transsexualism, there is only one.  Different life experiences give outsiders the impression that we are different groups, but we aren’t.  Transsexualism is a monolithic phenomenon.

While it is somewhat playing into the hands of those who want to dissect us to keep apart from one another, it is probably necessary at this early point.  These people want to get the real TS childhood narrative from us, so they can blend it with “HSTS” the way they have blended other symptoms with “AGP”.  We can’t let that happen.

Every time we assemble these people infiltrate and take notes.  Don’t let them.  Trust only those you meet, or those that you know through someone you have met.

Don’t tell your childhood experiences to these people.  Don’t speak to them of anything.  Deprive them of their research subjects.  We must maintain this information blackout until this group is gone from the scene and are replaced by people who don’t want us destroyed.  And make no mistake, if these people get their way they will do their best to wipe us from the face of the earth.

Resist.


Tilting at windmills

November 7, 2010

The need to separate the categories continues.  Apparently a transgender judge was elected in California.  Bully for her, I’m sure it’s a great victory for everyone who has transitioned and moved past the trans problem, though it was a major media issue in the campaign, right?  Yet in a comment the good judge says the following:

However, until people are open about their gender identity as confortably as others are about being happily straight and married with children, we will never move beyond this being considered newsworthy. This is why I talked about my wife on the website, and explained why electing a transgender person to be a judge would be positive.

Yet again we are treated to a comparison of transgender to gay, and how a propos.  (comparing transsexual to gay is not, and is a plain insult)  Yet again we are accosted with the hypothesis that if more trans people would just be out and proud, we’d normalize “gender variant” behavior and everything would be fine. There are two big problems with this view. 1) It isn’t true 2)  The nature of such “normalization”, if actually realized, is dubious.  For a “transgender” person, I’m sure having that status recognized constantly in public and then in law would be great.  For a transsexual person, it would be a living death.  But let’s look at 1 and 2 for now.

In the first place, there simply aren’t enough trans*people to ever make it normal.  Setting aside the fact that most trans is simply maladaptive behavior and therefore can never be normalized, the percentage of full time crossdressers in society is, and always will be, vanishingly small.  There are no hordes of would-be full time crossdressers just waiting to burst out of the closet, despite the fervent beliefs of the current “out” TG.

Thus they reveal their campaign is actually about making crossdressing comfortable for the people who enjoy that activity, and has little to do with “gender roles” or making a freer society beyond their one pet issue.  Rather, they hope to make transvestism commonplace enough that people just accept it at face value, and don’t put up any resistance to the things they want.  This is why I write that it is a matter of politics, not civil rights, and as such people are free to oppose this behavior without the specter of being called that range of names that the GLBT is so fond of throwing around.  Like bigot, or phobe.  Crossdressing is not the same as being gay.

Next is the notion that there should be a campaign to get into people’s faces with “gender variant” behavior because it would be good for trans*people.  Yes, it would be great for certain “trans*people”, and by that I mean of course the full time crossdressers.  The other “trans*people”, such as transsexuals and intersex people (who have not quite escaped the grasp of the GLBT at this point), would be poorly served by such notoriety.  It’s an entirely selfish proposition that benefits only the fetishists and the genderscrews, while damaging transsexuals and possibly “intersex” people depending on the strength of the GLBT takeover of that category.

The prospect of non-transsexual people “educating” the public about the condition is absolutely horrifying.  Yet many of the people who are doing this have no idea they are not transsexual.  They have been lead to believe that the condition is acquired by getting surgery and nothing more.  I’d like to believe that if the majority of them knew that they were doing harm to people like me by their public proselytizing, they would refrain.  And at the same time, we have to realize there are some people who conduct these disinformation campaigns with the specific intent of wiping our existence from the public mind.

What the GLBT fail to understand about transsexualism is that being “out” precludes a successful treatment of the condition, before you even get to the other arguments.  If you are “out” you are constantly confronted with the transsexual problem and it will never resolve.  That is why so many transsexual people look askance at people who claim to be “out” post op transsexuals.

If you make the condition the centerpiece of your life you would be overwhelmed by this issue which we all supposedly share(d).  Your life would become a daily horror show as y0u were confronted over and over with being forced back into the role of a man to everyone you meet.  If you don’t understand why this is so and disagree, you are beginning to ask the questions that will give you a better understanding of the condition and show you how it is completely at odds with the accounts of “transsexuals” who populate the youtubes, podwaves and blogosphere with their out and proud lifestyles.

And so because the transeducation campaign continues, it is necessary to continue to draw apart their construct.  As long as the denial of the separate nature of transsexualism continues, efforts to point out the truth to people who matter will continue.  They may dash themselves against those windmills.  They may not dash others, however.

Their failure to realize that their political campaign is coercion and force is another one of the key points that they must understand at some point.  Cries of hate against us are foolish when it is they who hate, they who try to manipulate and control and dissemble.  You cannot tell post transsexual people, or anyone for that matter, that they must join your political crusade or be called bigots.  To do so is to employ a kind of violence.  And that is exactly what they do when they deny us our voice.

In the end they are hurting only themselves because by the foolish attempt to normalize their behavior, they have accomplished just the opposite and set themselves out and apart.  As they continue to insist that transsexual is transgender is transvestite is gay is lesbian is straight, people become more and more aware of the duplicitous nature of the claims.  And as they do that, others will make the differences clear in other venues, out of the public shouting match that we call the internet.  Like it or not, people can tell the difference between us and them, and all the wishes and words in the world aren’t going to change that.

If you live your life as a transgender person, that is what you are going to be.  No transsexual person would ever find that acceptable.  You can save yourself a lot of pain and moving expenses if you learn that lesson early.


If you aren’t transsexual, don’t transition

November 2, 2010

SA ET has a great post at her blog Enough Nonsense.  It’s really about time that someone pointed out that the world does not, and will not, change to accommodate the wishes of those of us who transition- lots of people seem to think that saying you have a medical diagnosis of being a transsexual means that people must treat you a certain way.  And when it doesn’t they think something is wrong with the world.  That’s one of the key problems with the transgender approach.

Half transition is not a cure for a “partial gender identity”.  That is patent nonsense.  Transition is for transsexuals and there are no half measures involved.  You either do it and accept the consequences or you leave it be.  People who think they can live between genders are fooling themselves and wrecking their lives.  And those who push this gender identity garbage have done major damage through their advocacy for a false construct both to themselves and their families, as well as to the overall state of transsexual medical treatment and public acceptance.

As a friend says, if your life isn’t better after transition than before, then what are you doing it for?  To live “authentically”, comes the refrain.  But that doesn’t really mean anything does it?  A life can be measured with objective criteria of happiness and fulfillment, and the transgender lifestyle fails at these tasks not because society simply doesn’t understand them (as it is with gays and lesbians to an extent), but because the transgender lifestyle itself creates misery.  It is not a legitimate way to live.  And you know why?  It’s axiomatic, and it’s what I just said.  TG produces a misery index every time it is injected into someone’s life and it causes demonstrable harm.  It misdirects a person’s time and energy away from handling their issues with false hope and false promises of a better life.

And once you tell everyone you are TG with the obligatory coming out routine that is prescribed for all trans* people, you can’t take it back.  It’s forever.  Unless of course you disappear and resurface.  But your ties with your family and other loved ones can never be untainted.  Trans carries a high price, a price that is denied by those who try to sell that snake oil.  If you try to transition and are not a transsexual you will quickly find that life becomes all but unlivable over time.  Visit any TG “community” and look around.  A bastion of hope and change it is not.

Do I say these things to harm people?  No, exactly the opposite.  I have seen first hand what trans does to people’s lives and it never turns out well.  By being straightforward, and even angry, I hope to impart an urgency and a truth to the dialog that doesn’t exist now.  The world is not a place where we can all just join hands and play let’s pretend and have everything magically appear the way we want it.  But neither is it the cold, cruel world the TG imagine must await them outside the ghetto walls.  You just have to be honest with yourself, and take that first step towards your future.

For some being truthful with yourself is the hardest thing you can do, as another friend just pointed out to me. (Hey Lisa! :))  But that’s where your life begins.

If you aren’t transsexual, don’t transition.  Sooner or later you will regret it.